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Poems from 2026

August

Penelope's BedOdysseus arrives after too much wandering.
RitualHe walks in silence, and into
Toward SunsetHe walks over sand, past cacti
DevourerVines shoot out
Madness of StarsSophia, your madness shimmers now
Mad DogThe mad dog lunges
Perfect TimingBeing crazy about a woman like that is always the…
The AnswerShe is the answer,
Act of WorshipEvery orgasm
Machines and Their ServantsA man in white answers the call
So WrongShe still sings to me
Self and StarsThe mother grips her son with a love
PredicamentWhat a predicament,
The Fragrance of LoveThe mind goes blank, losing
In Search of the FaceWe set sail for Troy
Storm Still RagingYou've entered a storm still raging,
The Whole StoryMy mother didn't hug me enough
The Habit of SilenceThe pain answers its own question.
In the KitchenHe sits in the kitchen, wondering
Other SkiesI take off my hat
The Missing PieceAriadne, the stars shall welcome you
We Have To BelieveEven in the midst of egregious pain,
Saint TeresaWhen the faithful discover eros
The Right PersonMaybe I just need to
For EternityI see you, even now. I feel your warmth
Still Human BeingsBelieve it or not, we are still human beings,
A Possible SalveWhat a strange silence now nestles
A Culminating of DestinyI call to her still. What strange
Dry No More (Real Enough)I have been to the desert places.
I Met the GoddessI met the goddess and learned her name.
ThinkThere's a madness to my method, but I think
I don't want to let goI don't want to let go, because love
RainbowA rainbow reminds of that other storm
Into MortalsThe mad goddess descends
Sweet SophiaHow many songs shall I write for you!
Seeds of a Dying RoseI take these seeds
If Not HersHer darkness drew me, and there I found
Under the Sweetest DesireJust between us, did the love affair maim you too?
Flying Lessons IIBird big and bird small
Nothing Says I Love YouNothing says "I love you"
Heaven's Feigned BlissShall I flutter off again,
The End of ItThis is the end of it, this
Dark PassionBut there are things that happen between a man and a…
ThanksI would love
Finding HerselfShe sets out in search of passion and meaning
The Canyon of Life and DeathI did not know I was coming, did not know
Another MeI arrive again at the strangest place,
Forbidden FruitSomething comes again to grip my mind
Jesus CallsJesus calls, out of some dream,
Not Out of the WoodsI am not out of the woods.
Searching For YouTime swirls, over and under,
Adagio RomanceShe wonders. He waits.

July

Encounter For Solo ViolinShe carries authentic composure,
Come Again, VestaCome again, Vesta, again, again!
She Waits As She WaitsShe waits for the storm to pass, knowing only
A Sudden JoyA sudden joy in the strangest way,
Heaven and HellShe has the power
The Real ThingI wanted to hear her voice, to touch her,
Through SacrificeI summoned the goddess
Whence We Have ComeWho would answer them, these voices
Sacred CandleShe carries a sacred candle
Two LivesHow can two lives
She Stands For SomethingShe stands for something celestial,
I WouldWould that you would hear my call,
The Man Who Speaks PlainlyLet me summon the man who speaks plainly
MeaningIs there a meaning, after sadness,
Too Many NightingalesWhat was the meaning of these nightingales
Life of a Certain KindThere is a blinding kind of faith
Jesus AgainI remember a Jesus
StardustThere comes a time
AlwaysI don't know why my eyes
Show Me the GoddessShow me the goddess in you
TroikaI now understand better. Now
A Bed NeglectedA bed neglected

June

Ongoing Flow of DreamsAm I losing my mind
Her Cool TouchThe mad goddess drifts in and out of time,
In the Mind AloneI wanted to love her, and I am not ashamed,
Even In Our Own HeartsThey journeyed together
The Sacred FeminineIf I could only turn back the clock to when God and…
Stop Being HumanWe don't stop being human,
Only TogetherAnima and Animus rise through time
Some Brighter DayAbbey burns through time like a memory
Loss of PowerWho can remember, when tomorrow arrives,
The Stag ReturnsThe stag returns to the woods
Out of MyselfOut of myself, into reaches unknown,
Glass CastleA time came when questions
Journey BeginsYour journey begins, and I
Man of PeaceI have found myself again,
Love to BelieveIs it possible to believe? To believe
A GlimpseI glimpsed one
Sacred FireI live my life
Not the SkyI called to you across the stars.
The Purpose of PowerThe purpose of power is health,
CodependencyHave I uncovered my own codependency,
In Open AirThrough that door, into mystical grace,
The Dark LadyThe Dark Lady swirls around and around

May

That DoorLet me revisit the question of love,
Hiccupping WhiskeyNow I get it, having turned
Strength for LoveSara was not my muse for long, though she did
Another New DayToday is another new day, this one
UnveilingI don't know what will come of it,
The Right Occasion to StrikeHow was one ever to arrive
Christian SirenShe summons libido for a holy end,
MotivationPain at least provides motivation,
Openness to PainShe brought change, and a kind
Truer, Higher, DeeperDrifting about, once more searching for myself
This Holy PlaceI see again those hidden mysteries,
Love WaitsOne never knows how the twists and turns
Venus and ApolloVenus drifts out of orbit,
Female DeityGod works for women, but men
Light and ShadowOh, I did fall
The Alchemy of OurselvesTumbling on stormy waters, in search
Fuller IntegrationMan is in love and loves what vanishes,
Savage HumanityMy mind is intact, but the shapes
Children of Earth and SkyI must make a home here, in my own mind,
Ghosts From Another RoomI will not be convinced that I have not
Who is the OneReaching for forms, in the chaos
Better ThingsA succubus aims for a trauma bond.
Wrong TurnWhat does it mean
Against the ColdNow I see across the horizon
This and No Other As WellThe Man checks his pulse, feels the heat
Love YourselfLove yourself,
Trauma BondingTrauma bonding is a better name
Energies FlowI no longer rest in ideas.
Not Even RebirthI will not trust her,
HetaeraShe meant to hetaera me,
Ursa MajorAnima rises,
For the First TimeI saw her
EudaimoniaI am weaving a tapestry of the inner voices,
New OpportunitiesI regret my own weakness, the folly
Here on Earth and NowAnima brings me strength
Start at the CenterWho shall I be now, after journeying
Searching for OccupancySo much ink spilled on things
New SelfThe new self collides at last
Solitary BirdA solitary bird croons
Hero's JourneyI dreamed she was both damsel and dragon,
Integrate the ShadowIntegrate the shadow,
Make the Growing Things GrowI cannot escape these mysteries, the deeper truths
Beatrice LaughsBeatrice laughs,

April

Dionysus at the MatinéeI came
Postscript to Venus in FurVenus has her way with him,
Anima SongAnima, you are my life-song, the essence,
Beyond Good and EvilShe is moving
Tell Me I'm PrettyShe scans the crowd for faces
Beneath the Willow BoughI will rise and go now
Burn What Must BurnThe mad goddess often takes the form
New AdventuresI stumble over brambles, into
Mild BitternessShe offers the promise of an easy release,
Animus PossessionShe walks angry, surely right,
Find Your Way HomeLost and confused, too broken
DreamingDreaming only goes so far.
New VitalitySpring brings with it a new vitality,
ScattershotTwo birds fly scattershot
Some Happy SongLust and wisdom are strange bedfellows, strange…
What Waiting MeantReflecting back on who she was, or who
CaretakingCaretaking can be like a toxin,
Paper Tower VThe fire inside of him quells the dark
Fire and EarthMy fire burns for the image of love,
Pile of HandkerchiefsYou have left me
Needed Inner WorkThe transference becomes apparent to me:
Full StrengthI am back to full strength, or nearly,
BlancheAre these your poems, Blanche,
Spelunking IIWhen good things are unraveling, bad things come…
The Promises of BirthFalling back into myself, realigned
Preferring PenelopeOdysseus stands on Calypso's shores,
Rarely Tempted AgainThe mad goddess slumbers, takes a nap
HelenI had not met Helen before.
Pain, Real EnoughI have known pain, real enough
ReadyI am no longer in love,
TokenLight after stars, under stars
Seeking ShelterAnd so I still wander
ContemptIf you treat everyone with contempt,
Firm BeginningHere is a firm beginning, another setting out
What Are They?There is a place where energies combine
Head Held HighI will walk head held high
What You OfferYou who have awoken desire:
Truth or PowerThe mind must orient itself towards truth
Why Not BothThe active life, or the contemplative life?
Finding SophiaIt took me twelve years to find Sophia,
Sturdy ExampleI remember a time of brokenness,
OfferingsI find more bitter than death
The Work of the AnimaThe veil lifts, the fog clears, and I
CongregationA new man rises from the ashes
This One LessonThis one lesson was worth the pain:
NarcissismIt was a magnificent display
The GoalTo love and be loved,

March

Inside You All AlongThe conflict between inner and outer necessity
Home Right HereWhat meaning can be found in years
Soft Inner KnowledgeI begin to see who I have been, and I
Dig For Some HopeHe had finally arrived at the still point, the…
For What PurposeOnce again wishing to burn the whole thing down,
Where Daylight Touches EarthThere's a shorter path to tomorrow, one that
The Simple SelfThe council of inner natures
A Man at LastA dark night of the soul, with piercing visions,
Anima DialoguesMy anima was shy at first, unsure
Uncertain CertaintiesThe end is a new beginning, like always
Whoever You AreIf some other tomorrow follows
Waiting to HealI return to this space again penitent,
Cities Are NaturalDo I want excitement?
Look InwardDo not reach out.
AnimaSophia, the Lady, even "She" and "You"
Still Point of WholenessOne year closer to the sweet release of death,
InventoryDo not get lost
The Mad Goddess IIThe mad goddess no longer speaks,
Theseus Says GoodbyeAriadne, it seems that you deserve your namesake.
Paper Tower IVThe hearth half-finished lies in a broken field.
Warm LightThe sun burns, shines its light between spaces
From Place to PlaceIf I drift from one vagueness to the next,
WayfarerI am a wayfarer, lost somewhere between
The Mad GoddessHe was not sure anymore that he understood anything.
Poor Man's LoverA psychologist is a poor man's lover,
Earnest ContemplationIn earnest contemplation, now I sit
L'amour n'est pasThank you for trusting me.
The only thing leftWe have passed through limerence
TruceWas Vanda a test? Did you want me to bare my teeth,
Take These To HeartSome of my words are true.
Grains of SaltFeel free to ignore my song, as it passes through
Strange That I Do Not RegretHave I failed, perhaps in the worst possible way,
On the Meaning of Blue at the MatinéeThe possessing goddess has self-immolated.
Participation MystiqueHow many times must I tread and retread
Parting Words ReconsideredYou were stuck playing the role of the Anima Woman,
Bitter TasteAre you too young? I don't know, I don't know...
Paper Tower IIIThey continued past the village,
Already Thinking of LoveHow did I know already last March
Care For YourselfYou must care for yourself as a primary injunction,
Needed AlarmOur love became toxic
All Else Could Be ForgivenI can paint you with light or shadow,
A Woman You AdmireThere is still some libido in the tank,
Only ShadowPerhaps I now make excuses
Better CareHave I spoken too harshly? I must be true
Some Penelope AwaitsI will set sail for Ithaca, as ever,
Calypso ReturnsCalypso returns to my mind out of nowhere.
Woman NowAre you a woman now? I don't know
Peeking EyesSomething about those peeking eyes
At the MatinéeI saw you peek out, just before
The Game of LifeManhood is no myth, not some fabled caricature
Uncomfortable PeaceInstitutions always seek new members,
Half Mad, Half CivilizedThe spinning point at the center
Legion of IncubiThe woman's incubus consists of a host of masculine…
Send in the CavalryWe're still working on the abolition of war.
Floating CastleI will build this castle of words.
Your FutureI have told you all that you needed to hear.
When God DiesTo assert that God is absolute amounts to placing…
Raphael's MadonnaI paint her in colors worthy
First DanceWhen you're ready,
Full GravityBut love is a complex maneuver, requiring
If I CouldIf I could soothe your pain
Gaseous At LastI will seek answers
For So Long I've DreamedTime passes, day turns into day,
Strange PredicamentWhat a strange predicament.
TurbulenceNow I will try again, to my own surprise,
How we grow saneThis is the process, these oscillations,
Worth Fighting ForI see darkness in her, and it saddens me
Paper Tower IIThey left the tower and started the long, winding…
Sophia AgainSophia, long have I searched in vain
The Lady Will Not SlumberBut the Lady will not slumber.
Hollow Moon RisesThe hollow moon rises, reclaims its place
Something SeriousIf you want something serious,
I went to herAnd obstacles proved stronger.
Youthful InfatuationWas this a youthful infatuation all along?
InitiationI might as yet have been a spreading flower
Unyielding PeaceUnyielding peace, after storms,

February

Friend in NeedYou know we never really gave love a try.
TransferenceHas the transference succeeded? Telling me off
A New DayI am glad that you have awoken.
Lover and GuidePerhaps I see now the folly in trying
The Rebuke of VenusWhich of us deserved the rebuke of Venus?
House of the Dead IIICan I really descend once more into the house of the…
ShadowsHere is a place to wrestle with shadows.
Seed of LoveThe seed takes root and germinates.
New ClarityNew clarity after the expulsion of demons.
EpilogueLet us immortalize you here
Parting WordsBut I will not walk away until I have finished
Self-loveYour self-love must be a heavy burden.
You Have Helped MeI'm not sure who used who. Dreaming of love
Just TimeIt was just time for me to fall in love.
Final DiagnosisNarcissist, vulnerable type.
Never One-SidedI cannot believe that such passions are ever…
PainHow the pain swirls now...was it worth it?
New BeginningIf we should meet again,
DealbreakerVanda really is a dealbreaker for me.
FantasyFantasy serves its purpose,
Game OverAnd yet I do know she was trying to grow through…
Girl Who Cried LoveI have known the girl who cried love
PhonyAre all of her emotions phony?
Worth a TryIt really was worth a try, you know, in the absence
Playing with FireIt really was childish to play with fire.
BitternessBitterness is a poison pill, a snare
TouchedI have found her interesting, and more, perhaps,
Journey of the SelfThe journey of the self, from small
LabyrinthThis labyrinth cannot hold me, for it is made
TransformationTransformation is ensured, the work is done,
Any LongerMost likely she doesn't know either.
Repressed LoverRepressed lover,
Lovers' BondYou and I are not gods,
RespectThomas and Vanda do not respect each other.
AltarIf you cut out my heart,
Body/MindThe body is the foundation for spirit,
Stable HearthLook to Vesta for warmth.
HeloiseWell, Heloise, I guess this is goodbye.
Thomas, Not VandaYou are not Vanda. You are Thomas.
Closed DoorThe door remains closed,
The Hard Road In Between (Madonna/Whore)I cannot determine if she
Inside You, DormantThe way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart.
InnocenceIf your innocence blinds you,
Wild StallionThe wild stallion in my heart
The Darkest PossibilitiesIt is good to consider the darkest possibilities,
New Future BeginsWe must clear the floor, make room
SuccubusSo, you are a succubus, is that it? You're hardly…
Dance of Hope and DoubtThe dance of hope and doubt
Messy HeartYou are not perfect,
Better to KnowShe stood her ground,
LonelierBeing with someone
Cruelty IIOn second thought, my thoughts turn away,
VelocityI see where you are, but I also detect
Master/Slave DialecticAnyone whose strength
Strength III want your strength.
InexperiencedMaybe I am the inexperienced one.
Forgive My SternnessForgive my sternness and many projections. I'm sure…
Do What I SayI want you to do what I say,
No Ken At AllI go out under the moonlight again,
At the EntrancePerhaps we have rubbed shoulders
More Than PowerTo hear my suit, and perhaps my life's work,
WhitmanFor all his delusions of grandeur,
Blaze III lack the words for how you make me feel.
Stronger StillI can write you poems, make a strong man lose his…
Vulnerable NarcissistYou do fit the pattern of a vulnerable narcissist,
Eternal WinterThe frosts of our eternal winter
A Moon of Surprising SizeSo many things that I've wanted to share with you
Sweetheart Like YouWhat's a sweetheart like you doing in a dump like…
Let Your Body ExplainA woman waits for me, she contains all, nothing is…
Teachers' LoungeI am a poor teacher to so often learn from my…
Sexual AwakeningIs it a sexual awakening? It looks like one.
BurnI feel your anger burn. Do you know who deserves it?
Not RationalAny attempt
Real StrengthDo you see now? The girl who once misunderstood
FallingWe are already falling.
Resist NatureMonotheism clouds our judgments about nature,
The Burdens of PregnancyI appreciate the burdens of pregnancy,
SexSex is how we make family.
Black SheepBlack Sheep leaves the herd,
Next to the FlameVanda is the Devourer, nemesis of every Oedipus,
BlazeNot for the first time you have spoken
Surgeon or AssassinThe tools of the surgeon resemble
Keep It SharpMy apologies. I have caused you undue vexation by…
Ruling RodYou must carry the shadow
Holy BrewI see you now: the good girl
Stand Up For YourselfYou have been told to turn the other cheek,
RuptureA rupture, somewhere.
FireWe are not playing with fire.
ImagineI know you can imagine it.
HookI am on the hook,
Perhaps NotPerhaps I saw you, the blur in the hallway
Who You Would Like To BeHence I regard the loss of balance as purposive…
The Pain of Reality[S]he had no notion of the game she was…
Catalyst and ObserverYou are still shapeshifting.
Parts of VandaI do see what you've done,
Hard to TellNow, having laid out my position
The Habit of LovingHow does one acquire the habit of loving?
Extraordinary DisciplineLove is not truly unconditional,
Second NatureHabits can be cultivated, lessons learned
The Reason For DisciplineThose who develop a taste for cruelty
CrueltyI can taste your cruelty, even in the midst
Whole, CompleteI would see you whole, complete, yourself
Much In CommonHere's the rub:
Growing UpA man may grow old in vain.
Tragic FiguresOr must I go through the looking glass?
Letting GoI long for you with a longing
ClevernessVanda is not a good role for you,
Only to StrengthenThe ultimate degradation
ThornsHe who wants a rose must respect the thorn.
The One You Will BeHow does one find strength? Through a kind of…
StrengthYou must not let love
VandaHave I imagined you? Suddenly I feel once again
VenusVenus, of course, is a goddess,
TiredI grow tired, and not for the first time. Has the…
I Will Live WellPerhaps this was my story after all, and all along
Walk AloneI must be prepared to walk alone. There is no road
BabylonPerhaps it is time to stop dreaming. I sense a…
MysteriesI know better than to expect that a woman
MemorandumPfft, too sappy!
Sufficiently MotivatedIt's amazing just how many
Fertility ExamI have reviewed the evidence you sent me,
SweetheartGood morning sweetheart!
At The Same TimeI am either going to fall down

January

Anatomy of ShadowsAre you on the hunt, and am I the prey?
Without Losing YourselfOne day you will love without losing yourself.
Only As HumansYou are seeking the center, the middle way
Hair on FireYou are beautiful even with your hair on fire,
Labor of LoveThis is a labor of love in more ways than one.
The Beast In ManOr are we still in the labyrinth? Are these your…
ChildrenIn truth, I did not want children for the longest…
Evil AfootI do find this game delightful, but I must remind…
Fill In The BlanksI must fill in the blanks
Heights Worth ExploringI am happy to see you deflate my call
What You Are Fighting ForYou have spoken again. I will need some time
WaitingWe are waiting to feel ready. We are waiting
Good FruitsI would wish you the happiest days that you ever…
How I Hear ItCall to me, sweet spirit,
Marriage Bed IIWoman, your words have cut me to the core.
Free WillEducation should aim at destroying free will, so…
Into The AbyssInto the abyss again,
Culture the PastThe past, it turns out, is easy to destroy,
Contra KantPhilosophy, at its best,
Feeling Dry (A Pain From Long Ago)I'm reminded of another pain from long ago,
HealingHow far we have come, and how far
Very LuckyI could write you poems for the rest of my life
AccessAccess to a woman's body
New MountainI am brimming with words again, words for you
Odds of SuccessI would guarantee success if I could, but you and I
PresenceI must see that you are ready to be a woman
EntropyEntropy is the status quo.
Prepared To Make GoodThe mists of time close over, clench what has been
The Sexual Development of Exceptional PeopleIt's well known that sexual development requires a…
The Night of the PigtailsYou seemed very young (far too young
FieldInto your eternal bosom, let me come and rest,
Thing of EternityWhat use in protesting it? See, I am here, I will…
Obvious By NowI suppose I'm in love. Is it strange
Room For DoubtsA strange calm echoes the silence both in and out.
Through This ExperienceI think I can love you. That's a start.
How MuchWhat is a good man? One free of all shadow?
Inner BeautyTo be born woman is to know ...
KatanaThough pedantry denies,
IntuitionYou've come. No, not in real life, in that realer…
VesselDarling, let me tell you why my heart sings.
Blossom IIAs spring approaches, I hear the birds
Paper TowerShe sits at the center of her tower in prayer.
Make It LastHave I invaded your privacy with words of love,
PracticingIn her moonlit room, she practices her oeillade.
Mere DreamThe fantasy must end one way or the other. It must…
Much More Down BelowWhen I step back and survey the journey we've taken
Soon Will I Love You In ReturnIf you use love (or love's withdrawal) as a weapon…
Remember The LadiesI desire you would Remember the Ladies, and be more…
Eyes OpenI have seen you in the midnight hour
Hors D'OeuvresI must wean you off of these poems to make way
A New HereWhat a strange mystery, silence after eruptions of…
Strong Enough NowA strange choice, a need to step back
Beyond MeI have caught sight of a future with you in it,
Come What MayEven in paradise, one can find doubts, and these…
Without Fear And TremblingI will repent, and I will swear to be chaste,
Regular ReleaseCan you heal the dark part of me, the deviant part
MotivatedI've never been this motivated before. You've gotten
From The TropicsGreetings from the tropics, where love grows
Not Without FuelSome loves are like fireworks: big and explosive,
Crown JewelCan I woo you with poems? It seems
The Path of an InsectMy heart has grabbed the wheel and said,
The Other HalfI have no trouble imagining being with you.
Two BirdsI want you to think hard about what has happened
OverflowingI am overflowing with love, there is no container
Two TogetherTwo together, wishing no other fate,
Love Left UnsaidI think we both know how we both feel.
Tell Me About YourselfFirst, she's an acquaintance, then she's a lover…
Flirting With DangerYou make it hard
Ebb and FlowStrange how desire ebbs and flows
Governed, Not DestroyedDesire must be governed, not destroyed.
Live By DyingI stand at the threshold gazing
Nearly BoundSomehow this thing keeps developing,
Friend To NothingMy wits return, and so I gaze
Ariadne IIAriadne, I liked you better
Waking, DreamlikeI have no use for fantasies.
EccentricitiesI know that you changed the words.
Uncharted WatersI think we have reached uncharted waters, the open…
The Dance of LifeShe is the earth, she contains in her heart
Critical VelocityMutual orbiting reaches critical velocity.