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2026

February 2026

Friend in NeedYou know we never really gave love a try.
TransferenceHas the transference succeeded? Telling me off
A New DayI am glad that you have awoken.
Lover and GuidePerhaps I see now the folly in trying
The Rebuke of VenusWhich of us deserved the rebuke of Venus?
House of the Dead IIICan I really descend once more into the house of the…
ShadowsHere is a place to wrestle with shadows.
Seed of LoveThe seed takes root and germinates.
New ClarityNew clarity after the expulsion of demons.

EpilogueLet us immortalize you here
Parting WordsBut I will not walk away until I have finished
Self-loveYour self-love must be a heavy burden.
You Have Helped MeI'm not sure who used who. Dreaming of love
Just TimeIt was just time for me to fall in love.
Final DiagnosisNarcissist, vulnerable type.
Never One-SidedI cannot believe that such passions are ever…
PainHow the pain swirls now...was it worth it?
New BeginningIf we should meet again,
DealbreakerVanda really is a dealbreaker for me.
FantasyFantasy serves its purpose,
Game OverAnd yet I do know she was trying to grow through…
Girl Who Cried LoveI have known the girl who cried love
PhonyAre all of her emotions phony?
Worth a TryIt really was worth a try, you know, in the absence
Playing with FireIt really was childish to play with fire.
BitternessBitterness is a poison pill, a snare
TouchedI have found her interesting, and more, perhaps,
Journey of the SelfThe journey of the self, from small
LabyrinthThis labyrinth cannot hold me, for it is made
TransformationTransformation is ensured, the work is done,
Any LongerMost likely she doesn't know either.
Repressed LoverRepressed lover,
Lovers' BondYou and I are not gods,
RespectThomas and Vanda do not respect each other.
AltarIf you cut out my heart,
Body/MindThe body is the foundation for spirit,
Stable HearthLook to Vesta for warmth.
HeloiseWell, Heloise, I guess this is goodbye.
Thomas, Not VandaYou are not Vanda. You are Thomas.
Closed DoorThe door remains closed,

The Hard Road In Between (Madonna/Whore)I cannot determine if she
Inside You, DormantThe way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart.
InnocenceIf your innocence blinds you,
Wild StallionThe wild stallion in my heart
The Darkest PossibilitiesIt is good to consider the darkest possibilities,
New Future BeginsWe must clear the floor, make room
SuccubusSo, you are a succubus, is that it? You're hardly…
Dance of Hope and DoubtThe dance of hope and doubt
Messy HeartYou are not perfect,
Better to KnowShe stood her ground,
LonelierBeing with someone
Cruelty IIOn second thought, my thoughts turn away,

VelocityI see where you are, but I also detect
Master/Slave DialecticAnyone whose strength
Strength III want your strength.
InexperiencedMaybe I am the inexperienced one.
Forgive My SternnessForgive my sternness and many projections. I'm sure…
Do What I SayI want you to do what I say,
No Ken At AllI go out under the moonlight again,
At the EntrancePerhaps we have rubbed shoulders
More Than PowerTo hear my suit, and perhaps my life's work,

WhitmanFor all his delusions of grandeur,
Blaze III lack the words for how you make me feel.
Stronger StillI can write you poems, make a strong man lose his…
Vulnerable NarcissistYou do fit the pattern of a vulnerable narcissist,
Eternal WinterThe frosts of our eternal winter
A Moon of Surprising SizeSo many things that I've wanted to share with you
Sweetheart Like YouWhat's a sweetheart like you doing in a dump like…
Let Your Body ExplainA woman waits for me, she contains all, nothing is…
Teachers' LoungeI am a poor teacher to so often learn from my…
Sexual AwakeningIs it a sexual awakening? It looks like one.

BurnI feel your anger burn. Do you know who deserves it?
Not RationalAny attempt
Real StrengthDo you see now? The girl who once misunderstood
FallingWe are already falling.
Resist NatureMonotheism clouds our judgments about nature,
The Burdens of PregnancyI appreciate the burdens of pregnancy,

SexSex is how we make family.
Black SheepBlack Sheep leaves the herd,
Next to the FlameVanda is the Devourer, nemesis of every Oedipus,
BlazeNot for the first time you have spoken
Surgeon or AssassinThe tools of the surgeon resemble
Keep It SharpMy apologies. I have caused you undue vexation by…
Ruling RodYou must carry the shadow
Holy BrewI see you now: the good girl
Stand Up For YourselfYou have been told to turn the other cheek,
RuptureA rupture, somewhere.
FireWe are not playing with fire.
ImagineI know you can imagine it.
HookI am on the hook,
Perhaps NotPerhaps I saw you, the blur in the hallway

Who You Would Like To BeHence I regard the loss of balance as purposive…
The Pain of Reality[S]he had no notion of the game she was…
Catalyst and ObserverYou are still shapeshifting.
Parts of VandaI do see what you've done,
Hard to TellNow, having laid out my position
The Habit of LovingHow does one acquire the habit of loving?
Extraordinary DisciplineLove is not truly unconditional,
Second NatureHabits can be cultivated, lessons learned
The Reason For DisciplineThose who develop a taste for cruelty
CrueltyI can taste your cruelty, even in the midst

Whole, CompleteI would see you whole, complete, yourself
Much In CommonHere's the rub:
Growing UpA man may grow old in vain.
Tragic FiguresOr must I go through the looking glass?
Letting GoI long for you with a longing
ClevernessVanda is not a good role for you,
Only to StrengthenThe ultimate degradation
ThornsHe who wants a rose must respect the thorn.
The One You Will BeHow does one find strength? Through a kind of…
StrengthYou must not let love
VandaHave I imagined you? Suddenly I feel once again
VenusVenus, of course, is a goddess,
TiredI grow tired, and not for the first time. Has the…
I Will Live WellPerhaps this was my story after all, and all along
Walk AloneI must be prepared to walk alone. There is no road
BabylonPerhaps it is time to stop dreaming. I sense a…
MysteriesI know better than to expect that a woman
MemorandumPfft, too sappy!
Sufficiently MotivatedIt's amazing just how many

Fertility ExamI have reviewed the evidence you sent me,
SweetheartGood morning sweetheart!
At The Same TimeI am either going to fall down